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[27 Mar 2005|05:15pm] |
Ok, I have decided that I'm going to stop using this journal and switch to a new one. I mean there are a lot of reasons for this but whatever.
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) tekastar is the journal I will be using from now on.
I have added almost everyone on my friends list, all you have to do is go to your lists and add me back.
Lexi, it won't let me add you, so can you add me so then I can add you to my new list?
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| all about me! |
[26 Mar 2005|08:24am] |
I stole this from Andrea because I'm bored and have nothing better to do on Easter weekend while at home.
Thirteen random things you like:
1) LiveJournal (obviously)
2) internet
3) ducks
4) music
5) tv
6) spaghetti
7) the color blue
8) girl magazines
9) flowers
10) Franz Ferdinand
11) cute little skirts
12) turtles
13) Reeses peanut butter cups
Twelve good movies:
1) pump up the volume
2) bridget jones' diary
3) moulin rouge
4) wedding singer
5) the craft
6) the notebook
7) sleeping beauty
8) princess bride
9) mary poppins
10) mulan
11) kill bill 1 & 2
12) christine
Eleven good bands/artists:
1) incubus
2) green day
3) franz ferdinand
4) maroon 5
5) alanis morissette
6) dave matthews band (gotta represent the chville!)
7) nirvana
8) they might be giants (:P)
9) barenaked ladies
10) modest mouse
11) smashing pumpkins
Ten things about you ... physically:
1) long black hair
2) dark brown eyes
3) 5'3''
4) relatively proportional
5) asian
6) big scar on my left leg (story from when i was 4)
7) a bit chubby
8) nice butt
9) big feet for being my size and asian
10) cute smile (at least so i have been told)
Nine good friends:
1) erik
2) paul
3) maria
4) sarah
5) kyle
6) drew
7) molly
8) missy
9) geoff
Eight favorite foods/drinks:
1) dr pepper
2) spaghetti/pesto pasta
3) grilled cheese
4) curly fries/tater tots
5) strawberry/pineapple smoothies
6) limeade
7) apple juice
8) eggrolls (not the ones from the restaurants but my mom's homemade ones)
Seven things you wear daily:
1) hair tie
2) underwear
3) bra
4) a shirt
5) pants/skirts
6) contacts
7) ring
Six things that annoy you:
1) stupid people
2) annoying people
3) long to-do lists
4) cold rain
5) the smell of my boyfriend's house
6) people who are too judgmental and hateful of catholics (no offense andrea)
Five things you touch everyday:
1) my laptop
2) my cell phone
3) my journal
4) my stuffed cow Pete
5) my fridge
Four shows you watch: (Sad how half of these are over)
1) friends
2) iron chef
3) sex and the city
4) jeopardy
Three places you go regularly:
1) Ch'ville and/or H'burg
2) walmart
3) some kind of medium class restaurant
Two of your favorite books:
1) Shopaholic series
2) Anne of Green Gables
One person you want to see right now:
1) Erik (of course!!)
Well after completing that, I think that I'm going to start using a new journal. When that starts happening, I'll let you know, but until then, enjoy the surveys!
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[23 Mar 2005|11:18am] |
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I am bitter.
It's raining -- wet and cold.
Wasn't it supposed to be getting better and springier and warmer?
My jeans are soaked from GCOM and I am not going to lunch yet because I need to do some leak control.
Blah.
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[22 Mar 2005|01:13am] |
I am still up again for some reason. And so I thought to myself -- It is wonderful to be in love! No offense to you Singletons, but it really is. I swear Erik and I could just talk forever if we wanted to and if we had the time of course. And we had a wonderful weekend despite the fact that we had a semi-miserable game of Capture the Flag in Charlottesville because of his stupid friends (:P). This weekend was good for us especially because we got a chance to talk about a lot of the serious stuff that we haven't really sat down and talked through.
Yet now he's gone and I'm here in Harrisonburg alone. I was eating lunch with Kyle, Amanda, and Drew at Mrs. Greens today. Then I thought to myself, these people probably would like me more if I hung out with them more often on the weekends. But sometimes it seems like all they do on the weekends (at least from what I hear) is drink, make out, and watch movies. First of all, I've gotten to a point where I really don't have to drink to relieve stress. Second of all, I can make out and watch movies and have a tremendously good time in my room with Erik. I do wish that I hung out with them more, but I mean I just have SOOO much fun with Erik and I don't exactly have as much fun with them.
This weekend is Easter weekend so I have to go home because Kim is going home. Silly sister. But that leaves me with a rather long to-do list for this week, especially because my GCOM presentation is next Monday. Perhaps I should be working on that work rather than writing in LJ.
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| Happy St. Patricks Day |
[17 Mar 2005|05:29pm] |
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I swear I do not understand this holiday. Isn't that excuse to excessively drink? Blah. Also I hate seeing like ALL-GREEN wearers. Not only does it hurt my eyes, it's so obvious. I do love subtlety.
Today is Erik and I's 8th anniversary. He's coming up tonight after his math test. I can't wait. This week has been utterly depressing for multiple reasons that I would really not like to discuss, but having him here will make things just a bit better. We have a lot of relationship things to talk about anyway. It will be nice just to sit down and talk everything out.
Meanwhile, throughout my boredom at this stupid school, I have been made a mod at ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif) dramafreeblinks and have been making blinkies and stuff all the time. It's just a mindless kind of thing that you can do when you're bored and you don't want to think about your problems anymore. Well...except when someone pulls some attitude and then you have to whoop out the bitch on them.
Sadly while I've been doing all that, I should have been cleaning and doing homework and studying for tests and researching for GCOM, but that is...well not fun. :P
Oooh oooh, I've also spend a considerable amount of time watching and listening Franz Ferdinand videos and songs, as well as do LJ surveys and write in my old-fashioned journal.
Hehe.
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| Taken from trble |
[17 Mar 2005|04:48pm] |
Instructions: Fill this out in a comment to me. :)
o name:
o age:
o where on earth do you live:
o reason behind your LJ username:
o five things you want to do/accomplish before you die:
o what makes you happy:
o what have you been listening to lately:
o do you enjoy reading my LJ:
o if so, why:
o interesting fact about you:
o are you in love at the moment:
o favourite destination:
o favourite quote:
o will you post this in your LJ:
RECOMMEND:
o a movie (that amazes you - a beautiful movie):
o a book (that inspires you, and one you couldn't put down):
o a musical artist, song, or album:
o your favourite LJ user (not on my list already):
o favourite community:
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[17 Mar 2005|04:32pm] |
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Boy am I pathetic? I just am stealing things left and right from other people's journals. And now is no exception.
Got this from Alli...who also stole it...:P
bold the states you've been to, underline the states you've lived in and italicize the state you're in now...
Alabama / Alaska / Arizona / Arkansas / California / Colorado / Connecticut / Delaware / Florida / Georgia / Hawaii / Idaho / Illinois / Indiana / Iowa / Kansas / Kentucky / Louisiana / Maine / Maryland / Massachusetts / Michigan / Minnesota / Mississippi / Missouri / Montana / Nebraska / Nevada / New Hampshire / New Jersey / New Mexico / New York / North Carolina / North Dakota / Ohio / Oklahoma / Oregon / Pennsylvania / Rhode Island / South Carolina / South Dakota / Tennessee / Texas / Utah / Vermont / Virginia / Washington / West Virginia / Wisconsin / Wyoming / Washington D.C /
Golly I wish I have been to more places in my life...I am still anxious to go to another country. I mean I have gone to Toronto, Canada, but I didn't find that to be a different, enriching experience. There is a reason why people call it America Jr. (no offense to you Canadians :P)
I am dying to study abroad potentially. However since I'm a math major, they don't really offer math classes abroad, merely because you can damn well study math anywhere in the world. Dah! Where I really want to go sometime is Venice and Munich possibly. Cayman, one of Erik's friends, just got back from Prague. How random is that?! But from what Erik tells me, Cayman somehow makes a trip to Europe a few times every year. *shrug*
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[15 Mar 2005|02:31pm] |
I swear that I have no life...Here we go. Took it from Rosie.
LAYER ONE:
--name: Teka Mai Phan
--nicknames: Teekie, Tekabelle, T, Ti, Beekie
--current Location: Harrisonburg, VA at JMU
LAYER TWO:
-- eye color: dark brown
-- hair color: black
-- height: 5'3"
-- righty or lefty: righty
--zodiac sign: Gemini
--chinese year: Tiger
-- your heritage: mostly Vietnamese with a little bit of Chinese
-- the shoes worn today: my grey and orange Sketchers
-- your weakness: random acts of kindness (Rosie, Damn that was a good one.)
-- your fears: being alone
-- your perfect pizza: chicken and bell peppers
-- goal you'd like to achieve: to get married and have lots of kids
* LAYER THREE:
-- your most overused phrase on AIM: hehe
-- your thoughts first waking up: Argh.
-- your bedtime: 1 or 2 am
--Chips Ahoy or Oreos: Oreo!! *sings* Oh Oreo! Oooooh!
-- Pepsi or coke: Coke
-- mcdonald's or burger king: Mickey D's
-- single or group dates: I like both, single ones get dull after a while
-- addidas or nike: if I had to choose one, I'd say Nike.
-- lipton ice tea or nestea: nestea
-- chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
-- cappuccino or coffee: coffee
LAYER FIVE:
-- smoke: NO
-- sing: yes
-- shower everyday: yes
-- like(d) high school: Loved high school. Good friends. Good times. Good memories.
-- want to get married: definitely
-- believe in yourself: half and half
-- get motion sickness: YES, I hate everything that moves.
-- think you're attractive: yeah I think I'm pretty.
-- think you're a health freak: I like to eat well but no, I'm still fat. So no.
-- get along with your parent(s): Not particularly. Depends on the situation and how long I have to be with them.
-- like thunderstorms: God no.
-- play an instrument: Flute, Piano, Clarinet, a few things on other instruments.
LAYER SIX:
in the past month...
-- drank alcohol: No
-- smoked: No
-- done a drug: Yes
-- had sex: No
-- made out: Of course :P
-- gone on a date: Of course
-- gone to the mall?: Again, of course.
-- eaten an entire box of oreos: I wish I could, but summer's coming and this flab is keeping me from them
-- been on stage: no
-- been dumped: nope
-- gone skating: nope
-- made homemade cookies: no
-- gone skinnydipping: No
-- dyed your hair: nope, but I want to
-- stolen anything: well I am a hooligan...
LAYER SEVEN:
Have you ever...
-- played a game that required removal of clothing: Of course. Everyone has and if you haven't, you should!
-- if so, was it mixed company: yep
-- been trashed or extremely intoxicated: I tend to get trashed or extremely intoxicated if I'm going to do anything like that in the first place. Moderation = foolish!
-- been caught "fooling around": *blushes* Probably more times that any person should...
-- been called a tease: hell yeah
LAYER EIGHT:
-- age you hope to be married: hopefully by the time I'm 25, but sooner is better :)
-- numbers and names of children: 4 at least; names are tricky because Erik and I have been fighting about it. :)
-- describe your dream wedding: outside, cherry blossoms flying around and lots of lilies all over
-- how do you want to die: old and happy with a fulfilled life
-- what do you want to be when you grow up: a mother mostly, then a teacher
-- what country would you most like to visit: Italy
LAYER NINE:
in a guy/girl
-- best eye color? blue eyes are dreamy, but all eyes are good...
-- best hair color? dark hair - brown really
-- short or long hair? short
-- height: taller than me which isn't hard to do
-- best weight: 125 lbs
-- best articles of clothing: button-down shirt and cute pants
-- best first date location: somewhere beautiful and romantic like a mountain sunset or some crap like that :-)
LAYER TEN:
-- # of drugs taken illegally: hmmmm 2?
-- # of people i could trust with my life: 2 (Erik and Paul)
-- # of CDs that i own: I don't really have CD's anymore. Three that I actively listen to I guess.
-- # of piercings: just my ears
-- # of tattoos: none
-- # of scars on my body: I guess like 3 or 4
-- # of things in my past that i regret: 2
Last Person Who...
-- Slept in your bed? Besides my cow Pete, Erik
-- Last person who saw you cry: My family because they made me
-- Made you cry: The family
-- Spent the night at your house? No one spends the night at my house, Erik spends the night in my dorm room though
-- You shared a drink with? Hell if I remember.
-- You went to the movies with? my mom
-- You went to the mall with? my mom, my dad, and my sister Kim
-- Yelled at you? Someone in my family (it all meshes together after a while)
-- Sent you an email? Leslie, the RA
Have Your Ever...
-- Said "I love you?" Yes, every time I talk to Erik
-- Been to New York? Twice
-- Been to Georgia? Georgia?! How random! No!
-- California? Twice
-- Hawaii? Nope
-- Mexico? Nope
-- China? nope
-- Canada? Once
-- Danced naked? Nope
-- Dreamed something really crazy and then happened the next day? Not that I can remember
-- Stalked someone? Well yeah kinda...
The Last Few Questions...
-- Last time you went out of the state? Long time ago
-- Lucky number? 5
-- Things you like in a guy/girl? sense of humor, personality, creativity, trustworthy, etc.
-- Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Yep!
--What do you think of ouija board? *shrug*
-- What book are you reading now? nothing that I am really close to finishing
-- What's on your mouse pad? I have a laptop
-- Favorite board game? Candyland
-- Favorite magazines? Elle
-- Favorite sound? a piano
-- Worst feeling in the world? Having to give up something that you love more than life itself...
-- Do you like scary or exciting roller coasters? YES
-- How many rings before you answer? usually 1 or 2
-- Do you sleep with a stuffed animal(s)? yep, my cow Pete!
-- What are you going to do after you finish this survey? go to Philosophy class
-- What was the last food you ate? Roast Beef Sandwich from Dukes
Dang that was long, but it gave me something to do while watching Passions.
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| Hehe -- stole this from blazincwgirl |
[15 Mar 2005|08:45am] |
1. YOUR PORN STAR NAME: Blueberry Riverdale (Name of first pet / Street where you live)
2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME: Skittles Ong (Name of your favorite snack food / Grandfather's first name)
3. YOUR FASHION DESIGNER NAME: Premium Applebee's (First word you see on your left / Favorite restaurant)
4. EXOTIC FOREIGNER ALIAS: Lemon Pepper Toronto (Favorite Spice / Last Foreign Vacation Spot)
5. SOCIALITE ALIAS: Beekie Charlottesville (Silliest Childhood Nickname / Town Where You First Partied):
6. "FLY GIRL/BOY" ALIAS: T. Pha (First Initial / First Two or Three Letters of your Last Name)
7. ICON ALIAS: Lucky Charms Limeade (Something Sweet Within Sight / Any Liquid in Your Kitchen)
8. DETECTIVE ALIAS: Kitten Charlottesville (Favorite Baby Animal / Where You Went to High School)
9. BARFLY ALIAS: Cheezit Screwdriver (Last Snack Food You Ate / Your Favorite Alcoholic Drink)
10. SOAP OPERA ALIAS: Mai Riverdale (Middle Name / Street Where You First Lived)
11. ROCK STAR ALIAS: Skittles Morrisette (Favorite Candy / Last Name Of Favorite Musician)
12. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: Tepha Hocha ( First 2 letters of your first name and the first 3 Letters from your last name makes your first name. Take the first 2 letters of your mother's maiden name and the first 3 letters of the city you were born in for your last name)
Well that was fun and interesting...:-P
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| Just for your notice... |
[01 Mar 2005|04:52pm] |
I feel like I have definitely given up on LiveJournal as a source of letting go of some steam. I feel like I can't really trust some of the people that are on my friends list and that often it causes more trouble than good.
I have reverted back to writing in a old-fashioned private journal. But I will be around here commenting on other's journals and occasionally updating on random things. Mostly I will just be doing LJ as a social kind of thing, such as communities and such.
Eventually I may come back to writing real things here in my personal journal, but for right now, not so much.
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[25 Feb 2005|12:44pm] |
Sometimes I really realize how much of a blessing it is that I have no roommate. Not only for myself, but for everyone else. I swear I must be the messiest, grossest person to live with. I finally washed my dishes that were contaminated with god-knows-what for like 2-3 weeks. I finally took out the recycling last night. And the fact that I did my laundry on Monday is truly amazing. Right now I'm working on the trash issue. I feel like the room MUST be clean before I go on spring break because I know I will NOT want to come back even more if it stays like this.
Today's To-Do List
Wash dishes.
Take out ALL trash.
Vacuum all areas of room.
Finish transfer applications finally.
Dusting desk area, etc.
Go to Walmart and get more organization stuff.
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[24 Feb 2005|02:16pm] |
It's cold.
It's wet.
It's snowing.
And I still have school.
Goddamnit.
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[21 Feb 2005|11:14pm] |
I swear I just did like 12 loads of laundry.
It's raining.
My personal issues have been driving me steadily crazy.
I want out of here.
I wish I could just let everything out, but there is no one that I can talk to.
I am so lonely. If anyone ever is on break or whatever, if you love me, please come visit me. :(
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[02 Feb 2005|03:20pm] |
Well here's a nice refreshing update on my life...
I didn't get into Phi Sigma Pi. Boowoo *sarcasm*. I have decided that I am just not compatible to be friends with any kind of group. Almost sad I suppose. I really want those letters though.
Classes are well. Hard and busy as shit though. Anthropology, Philosophy, Psychology, GCOM, and Calc 3. That's some load. Blah. I find myself mentally exhausted everyday, but there really isn't much to do about it I suppose.
Speaking of class, I did my dyadic assignment with my partner today. Her name is Pam. She's really nice. I heard from a lot of people that they were having troubles with it because they are all shy and don't know each other. I feel like me and her got along splendidly.
I went to Bdubs with Kyle and Rosie last night. No different than normal, but it's nice to have at least done it again for once.
That's all the update I can think of right now. I'll have to write more often I suppose.
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[02 Feb 2005|12:18am] |
It's nice to sometimes get out of this world. I mean I talked to Mike who is sickly living in Charlottesville at the moment, but it was refreshing. I chatted with Chris (military boy) and that's always a weird conversation within itself, but it always kind of brings back to a state where I'm not just angry and bitchy. Of course my sweet Erik does that for me sometimes, or at least he tries, and that's all I can really ask.
I really feel like last weekend with Erik was like a saving grace. I feel more in love with him than ever. I always go through weird moments where I just feel like I'm falling out of love. I was that way with Chris too. But I mean it's always nice to have a weekend where you just reconnect and everything is just plain wonderful again. But of course that doesn't keep my curious mind from wandering. HAHA! Nothing would ever happen. I care about Erik too much, but I like to keep my imagination going. :P
Well I feel good right now. I just feel very burdenless for a brief hour or two until I go to sleep and I wake up to another unfortunate day in JMU classes.
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Gad, I wish that someone would at least be able to understand!
Danger: Serious rant below! Probably better to NOT read if you go to JMU and know me personally.
( We're people too!!! )
Oooooh, I am so bitter. I wish I could just scream. Or at least find someone who I can really truly talk to. Sigh.
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Why do I always feel like the loneliest person at college? I have reasonably good friends here. I do relatively well academically. And I am just used to doing things here. Whenever I read in someone else's profile that they are having the time of their lives, I am so frustrated as to why not me? I mean I do have significantly different friends here than I used to back home.
I feel like I am just two separate people. More like I'm a shell of a person here. Just an exterior and no one hates the interior. I feel like one of those nasty raspberry chocolates that everyone thinks will be good but then when they bite into the gooey center of artificial raspberry, they gasp for air. Yep, the perfect metaphor for me.
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[26 Jan 2005|09:33am] |
Complaints from the last few days about this stupid school:
Why do people have to just leave tampons in the toilet just to disintegrate and have some poor innocent girl (like myself) to walk in and see that? YUCK!
Why is it when you want to rush a fratnerity or a sorority they have to take over your life for a week? I am near exhausted doing this Phi Sigma Pi stuff.
Why does my math teacher have to assign like 50+ problems a night when we have the class EVERYDAY?!
Why can't people just realize that they are ignorant and sheltered on their own and just cause the rest of us to suffer?
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| Early Morning Rant Because I Hate Everything (obviously)... |
[23 Jan 2005|02:38am] |
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It's almost 3 am and I can't sleep. Erik is here snoring on my bed and I just feel very unsettled because of this little quarrel we had earlier. The problem is that I don't know if I necessarily want to be with him anymore. Sigh. He expects too much and even though I try to explain it, he still wants it. I guess I am being selfish too, but I wish that he would understand what I want for once. I just feel so angry with him when he stays here for more than one night because he messes up the order (yes, the little order I have) and he just keeps me from doing the shit I need to be doing. He needs too much attention and doesn't seem to understand that I can't do things like my homework when he is like that. Blah.
I have been feeling irritable lately and I don't know why. Sometimes I just feel like punching people for being horribly ignorant or something like that. I feel like I'm losing my mind.
In lighter news, I am currently rushing Phi Sigma Pi. Its this national honors fraternity. I don't think I'll get it. I never seem to be the kind of person who can just get along with everyone. But we'll see. :)
I have decided that I don't hate college, but I hate college students. The constant screaming of drunk people at 2:30 am every night (especially the weekends), the mysterious beer can I found outside of my door yesterday, the sheer idiocy of the girls when the second classes are over, and the insufferable cookie-cutter-ness of this entire school! It almost seems worse over the winter which is inconceivable to me because I hate the cold like the devil and I don't see why anyone else could go "party" (and when I say party, I mean just drink heavily) in it. I hate the fact that the dorm always smells of mysterious, unidentifiable odors. I hate the fact that there is no convienent place for me to get food for a punch near my dorm. I hate that all my high school friends have now abandoned me for the sheer dullness of excessive drinking and hard drug experimenting with their college friends, whereas I am here trying to lead a good wholesome life with those people who act like they are righteous than anyone I used to hang out with but the second they get the chance, they will drink up a storm and become the morons of this dismal existence.
So what are you supposed to do when you are completely frustrated with everything that is around you and everything that comes near you or even comes into my troubled mind? I figure the rational answer is to suck it up, but that hasn't exactly been doing me any good thus far. Then I figure the good vengeful thing to do is to get a sniper rifle and just pick off everyone from my window. But that could send me to jail. So then alas I think the most emotionally comforting idea is to seek refuge in someone, but then I have no one for that because I am frustrated with everything. I have such angry dilemmas. And it will get worse as it is 3 am and my boyfriend sleeps, loudly snoring and I can't very well club him with anything. Sigh.
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